"A Yellow Butterfly"

"...there was a YELLOW butterfly always following me..."

I'm doing my so loved google image search...and today....I just want to see yellow butterflies!

"The BUTTERLY fragment!"

I blog when I find something inspiring, moving, touching, and just anything that charms me away...

On this morning, butterflies had this effect on me...I searched for everything and anything with a butterfly motif that put a smile on my face. Here are those charming things:

Fragment: NY/NJ

Another month of silence...and fragments actively happening!

I just spent the last 3 weeks at my second home with my parents: New York/New Jersey. I've noticed that when I travel, I don't seem to focus enough to sit down and blog. The irony is that travel should be a time of massive blogging since there's sooo much going on around and inside one's head.

Well, as you've all seen, I didn't :S

I know it's best to write when ideas are fresh, but I'll try my best in keeping the details real! It will take a couple of posts to share the impressions, situations, feelings and thoughts from this trip.

However, the first thing I have to say is that the days spent in NY/NJ revealed a lot of things to me. Understanding and acceptance took place inside of me concerning issues that've been obscured by time but not really healed. I feel things settling inside of me...something inside of me changed. The chain of events that have stirred my heart and my thoughts in the last 6 months gave way to this wonderful, soul-shaking trip.

I found this quote the other day:

"Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly".

I think this is what's happening to me...like a butterfly...I feel my wings finally coming out.

The day after I got back, I had lunch with my clarinet teacher. Profe has dealt with me for years and knows me very well. Someone I work often and closely with. We performed together the night before my trip. And when we met for lunch that day, he interrupted me as I talked and said: "Neny, you seem different; something in you has changed...your face has light; there's even something different in the tone of your voice. As you speak, I notice something that wasn't there before...I'm happy to see you like this".

WOW! This meant so much to me! His words confirm that what I am feeling inside is genuine and even, evident.

I am happy inside...I feel things changing...I feel things settling...I feel parts of me growing...I feel I am getting stronger...am I really getting ready to take flight?

Fragment: MY Born-DAY...turning 25!

Remember the little trip to Zara I might've taken? Well, I took it today! Ahhhh, so much delight in one place!! I wanted a couple of things, but of course, I could only choose one with the excuse of making myself a b-day present ;) This is what I got ---> aren't they gorgeous?! Funky and cute...really, really like them!

So my born-day is in a week; I will be turning 25...wait a minute! Isn't this when the "quarter-life crisis" should be taking place? But, but, but...I think this will be my "5th quarter-life crisis anniversary day"!

Seriously, everyone that knows me is fully aware of this: I've been dealing with the quarter-life crisis since my sophmore year in college! I think it has something to do with what Kim tells Michael in the movie "THE LAST KISS" (click on the link below and FF to 1:40 minutes):



"The world is moving so fast now that we start freaking out way before our parents did...cuz we don't ever stop to breathe anymore..."

Wow...what a trailer, what a movie! I soooo recommend it! It's one of the most realistic Hollywood movies I've seen. I don't know much about films, but I'm a fan of independent films because of how REAL they are, and this movie reminded me of indie's...ABSOLUTELY love it! Especially at this point in my life...speaks so much to me...

So for my SUPER quarter-life b-day, this is what I've got planned! I'm going to wake up early and have breakfast at some nice coffee shop (still haven't decided which); will hang out with my family (sister, brother-in-law, niece, nephew) for a bit, perhaps for lunch (?); will catch a matinee of "Nights in Rodanthe", which I've been waiting for by the minute (can't wait to see it!); will go home, shower, wear a sexy black dress, with a sweet butterfly headband I made, 'whichgoose' inspired :) (OK, so not even close to her fantastic creations, but it was fun trying!); will go out to "La Cave del Rey" for a fabulous dinner, at a fabulous place, and drink lots of WINE; will probably go home to sleep after that ;) mmm, but I think it's a nice day...just like my outfit for the night, it's like a mix of innocence and adulthood altogether...the matinee mixed in with wine at a fancy restaurant...the sexy dress mixed in with the cute butterfly headband...

.................25..................yep! I think that's what it represents for me right now....the MIX of it all...of all that I've been, up 'til this moment....*a girl breaking in to be a woman*....like a BUTTERFLY.....................

Fragment: FRENCH

I am so excited this morning...I even have butterflies in my stomach :) It's just been a while since I studied something, since I had homework, since I had to meet a schedule for something other than work, since I had to learn and memorize stuff...and for all these "since's", I finally went to a school and signed up for french lessons, YAY!

I've been wanting to learn french ever since I went to Denmark in August 2004, and met my wonderful french-speaking friends Emilie, Sandra and Marie Claudine (miss you girls!). I'd always found Italy a dreamy place, with dreamy guys and a dreamy language, so I took Italian lessons in college, learned quite a bit, fell in love with a very handsome italian guy, and after a failed intent to travel to Florence (got VISA denied, was SO mad!) all that interest went away. So, after meeting the french-belgian trio, I forgot about Italy, and started being interested in FRENCH!

I've wasted lots of time though the past couple of years...had been so focused on how lost I was that I was losing time and not investing in ways to find myself. But the waves have calmed...things are clearer now...my sun is rising...and the hunger for things is back! And I am taking ACTION! So, among other things that I will probably share later on, today one of those ACTIONS begins...and I am excited and nervous...how ALIVE do I feel?!?!

AU REVOIR ;)